Today was Memorial Day and I will forever remember every fallen soldier I got to spend time with my
family
I’m in goldsboro North Carolina as we speak with my mom my dad and my moms family my mood right now is sad because for some odd reason I wish I never moved to la . I’m scared to go back . Everything was just fine and dandy last time I lived in la and I was great and thanking god and wishing it would never end , I was strong and never wanting to go home . Now I just signed a year lease to this new apartment in Hollywood ALL BY MYSELF . I don’t have any friends out here all my old vine friends are extinct I don’t know what happened to them you can’t ask me cause I don’t got the answers I was in la at a point in my life I had tonio as a friend leli as a friend Alex P as a friend Joel as a friend Victoria vanna as a friend and now everyone’s just doing there own thing ya know it’s really scary to me I just want that sense of community I get it at church my church is my sanctuary I couldn’t live without it I want friends so bad my heart is literally yearning for them I’m going to continue trying bumble I’ve been asking god for a boyfriend while I’m praying for a career I feel like god really only wants to give me one at a time and I wanna pick acting for the right now I want the most is best friends to come over my new place all the time and spend the night . For the first two months of LA I KEPT thanking god thank you for keeping me safe thank you for making my trip a breeze and now my second month I went to jail my palms are sweating I can’t sleep they could take away my license ima be walking U know how much that’s gonna suck for me to have no whip and use Uber or my insurance be $500 a month . They say I could have like 3-5 years probation and I guys are the only ones I wanna talk to I need to release all this toxic waste that’s in my body creatively through music , drawing , acting , my clothes , my makeup , dancing , my body , workouts , dieting , I’m going crazy man I’m over eating not working out . Trying to re assure myself I’ll still be able to join an acting class even while paying for this dui if it’s the last thing I do because it’s the reason why I moved to la in the first place my mom and Dad aren’t tripping which is keeping me sane because if they were tripping I would be all over the place. God has paved the way for me and through it all I want to thank my loyal followers with me today . I never asked to have followers or this lifestyle I started making videos at the age of 11 as just a hobby I’m grateful to make the videos , watch them and see the progression of my relationship with you guys and my family and friends . I love making them for fun . I wanna work on getting ready more . Doing better makeup , waking up earlier , going to the gym twice a day , eating way less , for the rest of my trip with my parents I’m cutting out fat the last two - three days I’ve been eating so bad . I’ve been holding all of this in guys. I’m so scared to go to jail again it’s my worst fear man I was crying so hard I’m scared to leave my house I just constantly feel watched and terrorized . I wish my life was perfect and unhidden o just wanna act , get a nice $300 portfolio done of me and start going to Casting’s, I can’t get paid for them though cause I’m doing them for fun and I’m on disability for my mental health issues so it’s literally just for fun . Guys u are so true to me I love so much I hope you had a great Memorial Day more than anything I just want you guys to be happy with me and always stay in contact
i met the HH mascot handler a few years back at a promotional event and me and a select few others were granted access to a room in the back where, once we were behind the safety wall with our infrared goggles, they removed the protective outer layer to our surprise and delight
most importantly : the nose is a part of the skull and is also made of bone
shes in a cafe in amsterdam waiting for her date but she didnt show up, shes been waiting there for 30 minutes already and shes experiencing intrusive thoughts about being unlovable and is dissociating
Don’t project that negativity onto her!!! She’s just sitting in a cafe on a Sunday morning, she ordered her coffee and her date is still at the counter waiting for the scones she ordered for the both of them. She’s just a lil disappointed at how slow the customer service is, but she won’t complain about it ‘cause she knows they’re doing their best.
